It has been a long while since I've sat and wrote, and the little publish button in the corner, still makes me feel happy- the task accomplished feeling. You need that sometimes. You fail at work, you fail at emotions (with those stupid hang ups that you already have) and you still need to wake up tomorrow with that smile and go to work again, to fail again. But is that the right attitude to carry along with? Definitly not. Easier said than done though.
All this while when I wasnt writing, i was having an experience, with myself. total solace and no infringement whatsoever. And in the process of making myself a stronger individual who doesnt need support, I came across a thought that made so much sense. "Asking for help doesnt mean you have failed at something, but it means that you want to include someone else in your plans with you" and there you go. All the while I thought i was being independent, all I was doing was making myself more withdrawn. and that was definitly not my idea. Figured out ways, sorted myself out, but, there was a gap. In professional terms, an RCA was needed, very badly. I had become a person who doesnt want to go out of her shell by herself. She would expand her horizons and live her life and do things she wants to, but without anyone. one is lonely, 2 is company, and why would you say no to good company?
In my endeavor to find a life partner for myself, I happened to meet a rather interesting man, much like me, and unlike me at other levels. Making good friends is never a bad thing, but it leaves you again with a sense of discontent that what is wrong, where am i going wrong? and he said too, one cant just keep making friends right? you should find someone worthy to share your life with(rephrased :p) and that brought me down to the thought of what I actually want from the life partner. and yes, it didnt take me long and I am so proud of myself. and its very simple.
:)
All this while when I wasnt writing, i was having an experience, with myself. total solace and no infringement whatsoever. And in the process of making myself a stronger individual who doesnt need support, I came across a thought that made so much sense. "Asking for help doesnt mean you have failed at something, but it means that you want to include someone else in your plans with you" and there you go. All the while I thought i was being independent, all I was doing was making myself more withdrawn. and that was definitly not my idea. Figured out ways, sorted myself out, but, there was a gap. In professional terms, an RCA was needed, very badly. I had become a person who doesnt want to go out of her shell by herself. She would expand her horizons and live her life and do things she wants to, but without anyone. one is lonely, 2 is company, and why would you say no to good company?
In my endeavor to find a life partner for myself, I happened to meet a rather interesting man, much like me, and unlike me at other levels. Making good friends is never a bad thing, but it leaves you again with a sense of discontent that what is wrong, where am i going wrong? and he said too, one cant just keep making friends right? you should find someone worthy to share your life with(rephrased :p) and that brought me down to the thought of what I actually want from the life partner. and yes, it didnt take me long and I am so proud of myself. and its very simple.
:)
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