Dawning-I

ਮਹਿਯਾ ਨਾ ਆਯਾ ਮੇਰਾ...ਰੰਝਨਾ ਨਾ ਆਯਾ....ਤੂ ਭੀ ਆ...ਸਬਕੋ ਛੋੜ ਕੇ....ਮੇਰੀ ਅਨ੍ਖਿਯਾਂ ਜੋ ਅੰਜੂ ਰੁਲ ਦੇ....ਬਾਰਿਸ਼ ਬਰਖਾ ਸਬ ਕੁਛ ਬੇਹ ਗਈ ਆਯਾ ਨੀ ਜਿੰਦ ਮੇਰੀ....ਤੂ ਭੀ ਆ..ਸਬਕੋ ਛੋੜ ਕੇ....ਅਨ੍ਖਿਯਾਂ ਜੋ ਅੰਜੂ ਰੁਲ ਦੇ.....

These words rang a thousand times more amplified than they actually sounded and a couple of hours were spent reflecting on the words. And a simple song brought out so many answers for my otherwise sorted out mind (notice, the Otherwise!)

Its a plea to the heart, in denial, waiting in vain for her knight in shining armor to finally make his appearance. And when I think about my position at the present, I really consider re-rethinking of the concept of the "knight in shining armour" (we're not living in the times of the Mughals are we? ) But well. contrary to what I feel NOW, and mind you, I might just change my mind tomorrow morning when I see a handsome man step out of a Merc and give me the "you're my princess" look! Don't judge me. I look beyond the Merc alright? His shoes?       or maybe his, suit, or even his shades or watch? :p I'm not as shallow as you think I am. There's a lot more to this, and this time, I'm serious. The above mentioned attributes don't even count, if, IF, i daresay, the man has a lot more to do with his humanity and personality than his bank balance and signed blank cheques. Though I will not deny it makes life a lot more simpler, especially for the working class like me, but makes things a lot more complicated as well.

My dad once posed this question to me, "tor jonyo kirom bor khujte lagbe abar? janina chul gulo ar kotoh pakbe!" ( I've no clue what kind of a suitor to look for you, seems like my grey hairs will turn even greyer with this!) and trust me, things like this actually constrated my mind and made me have ONE atypical image of my man in an Armani suit! ( modernisation of knight in shining armor!) and that has lead me to make a lot of mistakes, a lot of wrong choices (I'd never say they were bad people, I'm nobody to judge!) but they were definitively not the ones for me.

And now that my search is finally dormant, I'd like to free myself and my mind of all stereotypical attributes I'd associate with that whoever and accept my life, without a baggage, with open arms and a radiant smile, that was lost long ago, for the very reason of atypical labelling of the species!! (you know which ones I'm talking about)

I'm off now! 

Peace!